Wednesday, April 27, 2011

April 27, "Untitled", study.

oil on canvas, 24" x 30"

Sunday, April 24, 2011

April 24, "Front Porch Greeting"

oil on canvas, 8" x 10"

not a very easter like theme, but I didn't have much time and I have been thinking about making this painting for awhile so I did it.

I have been very slow at posting. And really, making "daily paintings". This week I hope to reverse this. Somehow many things have started creeping into my time. Part of it is my decision to, for the most part, paint at my studio. It just is much better lit and ventilated then my house. But now I can see how often I get a chance to do that. Hopefully now that school is winding down I will be able to go there more. In honor of the coming summer, and the fact that my sister is visiting my parents in Phoenix I am attaching a ink painting of my dad's backyard.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

April 19 "Cropped Hair", and "Feathered Hair"

oil on board, 5" x 7"

I wasn't intending to make either of these paintings when I went to my studio but this is what I ended up doing. They give me a slightly icky feeling inside.

Monday, April 18, 2011

April 18, "Japanese Horned Melons"

oil on board, 5" x 7"
Saw this sitting at the check out counter at Central Market. Would never have picked it up myself but thought it was a sign to paint it. What a mistake. Have you ever taken a look in to one of these things? It is gross. I don't know how anyone could actually want to eat something with this many seeds. Apologies to people who love this thing but I was just like...ah... But it cost me 5 bucks so I was determined to go forward. I hate this painting. I was blown away by the detail and for some reason could not simplify it. Couldn't get the light, etc. and I made a mistake by not breaking up the background with another color or pattern. Live and learn. But ugh. This thing exploded my mind for like three hours. Yuck.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

April 14, "Tangerine and Mums"

oil on board, 9" x 12".

a bit complicated of a composition compared to the other still life with fruit but I wanted to try the combo of fruit and flowers. Could have been a bit tighter but I like the colors.
April 14, "A Hamster Named Sylvia Plath"

watercolor on paper, 4 1/2" x 7 1/2"

Well yesterday I did not make an oil painting. Instead I made three watercolors of animals.
I am not immune to crackpot ideas. At all. In fact I have millions of them. I just typically don't follow through with them and/or I keep all of the crackpot ideas separate and don't let them spill over into what I consider my "real" stuff.
However, I am starting to get desperate in an attempt to consider what I am doing with my life. I have worked as an animator for money for the past 11 years, but it has been on and off and although there have been fat times there have been very very lean times too. I am working on a short, currently, that is animated, but it is beginning to come to a close and I am starting to worry about money. I also won't be teaching this summer so, again, money worries. new crackpot idea is to dust off my etsy store and see if I can sell watercolors. I have noticed that someone else was selling animal watercolors and seemed to be very successful. I don't think I can just make animal watercolors, and I don't think I will, but I made a few just to throw up on the site. And I am pricing them very cheap. I figure, I haven't had any success with my prices yet, may as well see what happens when I price them cheap.
Of course, in my mind, whenever I begin a crackpot idea I am sure that it is going to be an ecstatic success. And since the watercolors have been up for an entire 15 hours and only about 12 people (at the most) have looked at them I have already started to consider it a failure. Which is very typical. I don't really let my crackpot ideas gestate too long for fear of falling down a rabbit hole forever.
I start to think things like...uh...I am now about to make 100 or so watercolors tailored specifically to things that I might like to paint but really I am trying to make something sellable. And it seems whenever I attempt that it doesn't work. I have no idea what makes something sell-able. I understand that probably most artists feel this way but it doesn't give me any comfort.
And the real problem is I could make a bunch of small "sell-able" things that I sell at a reasonable price or a few of what I might consider "un-sell_able" things at a price that only a few can afford and unfortunately I feel like I always end up at the same place. Nowhere.
There is, frankly, too many artists out there. This is how I feel when I fall down the rabbit hole internet of etsy or tumblr or any of those things. I start to think, how in the world will I ever make money as an artist? Because that is my dream, of course.
I typically think my problem is that I am all over the place. It seems that it might be helpful to pick one world and stick to it. World of daily painters, world of watercolorists, world of portrait artists, world of contemporary art etc. But I can't seem to do it.
I feel like I am too much of an illustrator, in a way, to land in the contemporary art world. I do consider that many of the things in the contemporary art world are supposed to be so 'heavy' and I feel that I sometimes lose joy when I travel over there. My work in that vein tends to be about anxiety and the possibility of things going hideously wrong. (at least that is what I like to imagine in the images I make)
And then there is a part of me that just wants to mindlessly draw celebrities and cute animals. And then there is the other part of me that wants to become a technical work horse at painting or drawing, etc.
I don't really know how to let them all live together yet. I haven't found that 'hook' to help them all make sense. And I guess part of the issue is I seem to dedicate different mediums to these different subjects.
I feel like the Sybill of artists.
In that vein I have posted a cute hamster that I water-colored for my etsy shop. I had a hamster named Sylvia Plath in college. She looked just like this little guy. That kind of brings together the anxiety and cute right there. A hamster named Sylvia Plath.

Here is the address of etsy if you want to stalk me there and see how ridiculously effusive I am trying to be about my cute animals!!

Monday, April 11, 2011

April 11, "Anniversary Flowers"

oil on board, 8" x 8".

We celebrated our 5th anniversary this week and my Dad sent us flowers so I attempted to paint them. This is the first flower painting made by me that I like. It could have been better, I was a little cold after not having painted for a week. But all in all I was fairly happy with it. I typically just cannot paint flowers well.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Well this is the first week that I basically am doing only one, maybe two? (tonight) of the paintings. And it is a bummer because I really liked the track I was on. But the one two punch of being sick/having to catch up and my mom coming into town kind of threw me off.
Hopefully I can pick up where I left off next week.
In the meantime here is a random drawing I made a couple of months ago.

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

April 5, "Apples"

oil on canvas, 5" x 7"